300th anniversary of …FALSE IMPRISONMENT(!) of Maestro J.S.Bach, the unsurpassed Genius of the musical intellect & emotional expression of all times, & the self-defeating tradition of THE EMOTIONAL SELF-REPRESSION

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November of 2017 marks the grim anniversary of the false imprisonment of the unsurpassed genius of the musical intellect and the master of the emotional expression — J.S.Bach… But, why isn’t this subject of the immense significance a part of the headlines of the major publications and the media? The name J.S.Bach, comparable in magnitude to Shakespeare in literature, isn’t as ubiquitous as it deserves to be, and as much as his music can be of the great benefit to everyone. And, it is of the critical importance for everyone to LEARN from this shameful and painful for the entire Humanity, horrendous and absurd Comedy of Errors of his powerful harassers?

This shameful fact of the past is still highly representative of the same horrific paradigm of the Comedy of Errors of the today’s position of an Artist in our society after 300 years, while we, as a society are yet to involve beyond such moral atrocity.

Meanwhile, the silence of the by-standers allows for the leadership institutes of our society continue to encourage the lacking conscience that creates the environment for under-utilizing the healing power of the Arts and Music, and continues to subject Artists and Musicians of our time to the same kind of senseless ill-minded treachery against, disregarding their gifts to be cherished by all. Of course, this outrage against J.S.Bach finds no more approval and had been condemned over and over. However most of these words are yet to manifest into the committed actions... And yet, we as the society are in DESPERATE NEED FOR SUCH CHANGES N O W. And, they depend on those, who had EVOLVED TO UNDERSTAND such desperate need that we face.

And our society has been unable not only to find the ways to avoid the same self-defeating catastrophes and to treat an Artist as the Community Treasure, National Treasure, World Treasure etc. as much as a selfless genius would deserve, due to the immense healing and enlightening contribution to the local and worldwide community in general sense, thanks to THE AWAKENED RESONANCE TO OUR OWN REPRESSED EMOTIONS that help us perceive the inner and the outer world with more clarity and accuracy.

No, despite the universal appreciation of the compositional TECHNICAL mastery of J.S.Bach, our society has been unable to do the TRUE justice to the legacy of this remarkably prolific composer and the immensely gifted MUSIC THERAPIST OF ALL TIMES, capable to transcend the embodied sense of the ethical foundations into his eternally precious musical mavericks, thanks to his generosity of sharing with his contemporaries of his everlasting Musical Genius of all times.

And this CONTINUING LACK OF JUSTICE TOWARDS THE LEGACY OF J.S.BACH hurts us all:

In the revealing and paradigm-changing documentary J. S. Bach: A Passionate Life, produced by conductor John Eliot Gardiner we have a privilege to learn what has been withheld from the generations of the music aficionados and even from millions of musicians who attempt to perform his music. Until most recently, I did not learn during the time of my studies at Children Music School (7 years), then in Music College (4 years) and afterwards, during the advanced University degree program (5 years). . None of the textbooks that were used in any of these programs revealed the events of intense and ongoing hardship that J.S.Bach had to suffer during his life. And none of my finely trained private teachers, with whom I studied in addition to the above, knew anything about these “screaming” facts about ALL-MUSICIANS’ IDOL either.

But, the withholding of the biographical facts was not the only distortion — the VERY MUSIC of J.S.BACH HAS BEEN DISTORTED at the core of its very ESSENCE! And this practice had become TRADITIONAL, PASSED ON FROM GENERATION TO GENERATION, and thus, it requires much more effort to CHANGE. And learning the truth about the life and the character of J.S.Bach helps us make sense of the task that we have today ahead of us — the task of repairing of J.S.Bach’s music legacy, and the task of finding the ways TO PREVENT THE FALSE AND SELF-DEFEATING TRADITIONS FROM FORMING AND BEING PASSED ON FROM GENERATION TO GENERATION.

Of course, MUSIC is the realm where no emotional distortion has any reason and makes no sense. But, according to my serving in the capacity of the adjudicator, this approach to music is very common, sadly. My life of the passionate music educator has been dedicated to finding the ways to bring up musicians with the true sense of HOW to express their inner and outer reality through the medium of Music. Fortunately, there ARE ways to teach this ability FROM THE VERY BEGINNING TIME OF MAKING THE FIRST STEPS IN MUSIC, when the musician’s HABITS are formed for the lifetime.

Unfortunately, and as unfair as it only can be, the tradition of withholding emotional expression in music of one of the most passionate musicians in music history J.S.Bach is still enforced in most of the musical schools today, during our time in the most mindless manner and contrary to the musical text and its meaning, as if the musicians (including those with advanced degrees and renown reputation) are “unable”(!) to read and to comprehend the meaning of the music text.

Every musician can only dream of having their music play a prominent role in the society after 300 years from their physical passing. But, can the spirit of J.S.Bach has no option, but to “rejoice” from the ONGOING, 300 year-long(!) PREJUDICE AGAINST HIS VERY CORE NATURE OF A PASSIONATE FOR LIFE AND DEEPLY COMMITTED TO HIGH ETHICS MAN, who embodied his essence through the medium of his MUSIC. And as the result, today, this tradition of the senseless distortion of the most powerful TOOL OF MUSIC THERAPY does not have to be withheld from the public, due to THIS UNSPEAKABLY FALSE AND UNFAIR TO ALL … TRADITION OF DISTORTION OF THE REALITY. (Stay tuned for more in-depth explorations of this subject in the later posts.)

Indeed, the liberation from the emotional inertia, from the lacking awareness can be a profound experience of both personal and communal significance, since that is the impact J.S.Bach had intended for his music to have…

THE TRADITION OF SELF-REPRESSION OF OUR EMOTIONS is based on the false denial of the significance of the information they carry for us, falsely believing in the dominance of the intellect over sensory perception, due to the INTANGIBLE, yet most influential part of our human experience. And, my music educator’s insights enable me to say that such DISABILITY to deal with the intangible, yet INVALUABLE substances isn’t the sign of the mind’s advantage. And such denial of the significance of the most obvious fact that THE BEST THINGS IN LIFE ARE NOT THINGS, is the most primitive way of leading the life — both to the personal and societal detriment.

No, after studying for many years, I ended up not knowing of the fact that this incredible musical genius was …A CONVICT (no less!). And the majority of his music’s fans and musicians have no such understanding neither…

However, my discovery of that biographical fact mysteriously coincided with the time in my life, when I was living through the most similar emotional trauma of my own. And, when everything had failed in my life, there was THE MAJESTICALLY EMPOWERING AND HEALING MUSIC OF J.S.BACH that is capable of restoring the cognitive balance that may be effected by the experience of emotional trauma:

Like every music student, I had to learn various POLYPHONIC PIECES by J.S.Bach throughout many years of music studies. Like many children who begin to study piano, I was assigned to play his little (yet still challenging with polyphony) Minuets and other pieces he wrote for beginners that followed by the amazing pearls of musical wisdom 2-part and 3-part inventions. And then, when the time came for me to enter the music college, I was assigned my 1st FUGUE (of course, along with the preceding Prelude, from the Well-Tempered Klavier collection that celebrates the use of ALL tonal keys we enjoy in our contemporary music.) During all of the above time my teacher had carefully instructed me to play J.S.Bach’s music without emotional expression “due to the different STYLE” (and also, in order to pass the exams with the good grades, and only if one demonstrates the good grasp of the …tradition).

In fact, in order to instill such attitude, she had used the powerful method of very insensitive IRONY that had quite powerful impact on a child (sadly). “Enough of Gypsy-type distasteful musicing!..” was my teacher’s way of protecting me from such criticism in the public settings of our exam-like, graded Academic Concerts that she had feared personally.But, I was not a Gypsy, although as a Jew and just like Gypsies, I had to live with the sense of exile, while suffering a lot from the minority status.

No, I never had any problem passing the exams with the good grade, when I played J.S.Bach, thanks to my teacher’s faithful following of the tradition that she had learned from her teachers in turn… But, I always felt most uncomfortable playing his music, despite enjoying it on intellectual level, however, I had never thought of the reasons for that... And that is why, like the majority of other musicians, I had never thought of questioning this approach since that is THE WAY every pianist had been performing J.S.Bach, AS IF it was some “dry technical exercise”, but not the passionate musical expression, brilliantly fit into the most complex polyphonic structure that was ever created by the Human race. In fact, all of the recordings by the esteemed concertizing musicians had the same quality of THE EMOTIONAL DETACHMENT. And young students naturally use such examples as their role models.

Today, we are most fortunate for his ingenuity to create his music composition masterpieces. And among the breathtakingly genius examples is the Well-Tempered Klavier, the 2-book collection of the most intricate music compositions for Klavier in the form of improvisatory Preludes that lead to the elaborate Fugues.

The very fact that these pieces were written by J.S.Bach in ALL KEYS, is very telling for the subject of our discourse. He wrote it with the deliberate purpose — to celebrate and the usher THE BOLD MUSICAL INNOVATION(!), the new for his time instrument of “Clavier” dynamic variation and with such tuning that allowed for the vast expansion of tonal diversity, as well as, for the vast possibilities for the composition tool of the tonal modulations, and through that — for the achievement of the incredibly powerful effects of musical coloristic transformations that had become a norm in our today’s musical vocabulary, but were incredible and prolific innovations at the times of J.S.Bach (and in fact, caused much trouble to its creator,who was routinely blamed for his NON-CONFORMING, out-of-the-box musical thinking, resulting in his risk to loose job security, despite his pressing large family needs).

Despite having to be the subject of the common conditioning, I must admit that the sense of the intense emotional expressiveness (that is a part of J.S.Bach’s music’s TEXT) had never left me, although I was forced to bottle it up since my childhood, in order to conform to the false and harmful for all societal norm…

However, the 1st invitation for me to bring up the LIFE FORCES of J.S.Bach’s music came at the time, when I was a mature adult and music instructor with my own students and Studio. And the person, who had given me much necessary permission was the internationally recognized expert in Baroque music, the master teacher, the author of the tutorial-books, the collector of Baroque-time instruments (including harpsichords) Ms. Laurette Goldberg. To my complete surprise, instead of restricting my emotional expression in Bach’s music, she had asked for …more of it, unlike many of my previous esteemed instructors. I would never forget Laurette’s comment about the need to to overcome the flatness of the harpsichord sound that had no capacity for changing the volume. She insisted on rubato (the Italian term for the subtle rhythmic deviations), exactly for the reason of stressing the climactic points without the dynamic range of the instrument. And, that IS what I was shamed for since my childhood — FALSELY, yet sharing the same faith with many other musicians.

But, this knowledge had to wait for a number of years, since I was still not ready to play J.S.Bach’s music in the style that would be CONTRARY TO THE COMMON AND UBIQUITOUSLY SPREAD TRADITION… In fact, I won’t be wrong to say that this is likely THE main reason, why the majority of the concertizing pianists avoid the musical gems of J.S.Bach in their concert tours programs, most sadly for all. And now I understand the reasons for it — it is due to the same emotional discomfort of having to conform to the audacity of the false tradition, without being able to verbalize it out loud: J.S.Bach’s music has lot of harmonic intensity that calls for the relevant dynamics, but the widely spread tradition prohibits such “style deviations” with the risk of the public reprimend…

Looking at J.S.Bach during the time when I had no choice, but to live each day AS IF THIS WAS MY LAST DAY…

It was the time when I was left with no access to medical care. This cancellation of my medical coverage policy had suddenly occurred at the time, when I had asked my Kaiser cardiologist to refer me to the known (to me, fortunately) pioneer-specialist and the advocate for Women-Specific Heart Disease, Dr. Noelle Bairey-Merz, the co-founder of Barbra Streisand Women’s Cardiovascular Research Institute. In response, Kaiser had …CANCELLED my membership, instead of linking it automatically to ObamaCare.

My medical coverage was cancelled in retaliation to my above average ability to connect the dots that many other women in the similar position were unable to connect… (Implications of how the polyphony of J.S.Bach and other complex musical pieces had helped me gain my symphonic vision of the world’s complexities will be explained in detail soon — stay tuned!)

I was lucky to find this important life-saving info through my own research by scouting the internet, while being moved by my desperate wish to find the answers to the pressing questions about my heart condition that was denied in the most odd and illogically cruel way — by throwing me out of the hospital with the FRAUDULENT DENIAL OF MY EARLIER DIAGNOSED HEART ATTACK (by Dr. Green of Alta Bates Hospital in Berkeley, CA, USA, that after the merger had moved to Sutter Hospital of Oakland, CA, USA. I have the important evident reasons to believe that he likely suffers from a pathological disability to engage in empathy-based interactions with his highly vulnerable patients (that can measurably improve through music-engagement, according to the studies data. Please, stay tuned for details on this subject.) And, as the result of his sudden cruel decision, the medical personnel had loaded me as a piece of meat on the stretchers, prematurely took me off the heart monitor and refused oxygen, while being cognizant of causing the additional tremendous emotional trauma, in addition (!) to the tangible threat of another heart attack (that may often follow the 1st one according to statistical data), despite the excruciating and most threatening, constantly recurring heart pain and other most disturbing symptoms that I was having, as the result of the unresolved hart attack issues.

(Notably, most of my home town of Berkeley’s residents are yet to find out that the entire Heart Catheterization Lab has been shut down at the above hospital and currently, the entire community of this renown university town that boasts the great saturation of Nobel prize winners, is being at risk of not having the nearby emergency facility, critical for surviving through the stroke and heart attack-type of conditions, since the City Administration had approved this most unprecedented closure not only WITHOUT NOTIFYING THE PUBLIC. No, when I found out about such outrage and requested for the public records, in order to try to find the solutions for the problem, I was sad to understand that giving the green light to such outrage was not the result of only dispassionate negligence, because of the deliberate withholding of the public records about it…)

“But, what does it all have to do with J.S.Bach?” — my readers may wonder at this point… My short answer is “Everything!” (However, the more detailed answer is yet to come in the upcoming blog posts that will focus on the issues of DETACHMENT AND COMPASSION in the medical field and what connection it may have with the realm of Music and Arts education — stay tuned!)

My discovery of all of the above previously unknown to me facts of J.S.Bach’s biography came due to my renewed appreciation for this composer’s healing music that helped ME, PERSONALLY, in OVERCOMING THE EMOTIONAL TRAUMA that worsened my already hard to deal with heart condition… And without any exaggeration, THE PRESENCE IN MY LIFE OF THIS GENIUS THROUGH HIS AMAZING MUSIC THAT I WAS ABLE TO INVOKE had saved my life…

When I recognized the power of this tool to heal, I also understood m obligation to share this gift of transformative knowledge, in order to help many other people with the same challenging task too (if I manage to live long enough to be able to produce the tutorial tool to introduce to the public the unique insights that I had gained through this trying experience…)

At first, I had turned to J.S.Bach, because I had nothing more to loose, since everything has felt as “being lost” for me by then… And indeed, J.S.Bach did not disappoint, while I had no limits for giving it “all of my 100%” of the engagement that I could not afford earlier, due to the lack of the time for it in my complicated life of a female, immigrant-music educator in the past. But, all I had in my possession was the least expensive 88-key keyboard that I bought on sale, since I had no piano at my disposal. (In addition to having to struggle to stay alive despite the lack of help from the hospital staff, I was forced to leave my home by the corrupt City officials, who took advantage of my illness, in response to my pleas for the urgent help. Yes indeed, the misusing their public authority for the self-serving interests, incapable public officials had turned me into …a refugee of the City of Berkeley, thanks to giving a blind eye by the so called “progressives” who were immersed into the all sorts of excusiology from tribalism to the plain open harassment and defacing of my home’s walls, tearing off my sign “Join the Kindness [r]Evolution today!”, stealing of UN flag, breaking the large branches of my tree, etc. [Please, STAY TUNED for the details on this surreal, yet true story of my trying to survive…])

So, while having to live in exile and away from my home that housed my pianos, the limitations of the keyboard were incredibly annoying to me particularly at first, after being used to playing my old Steinway baby-grand. But, I had to find the solution : I began using other instruments’ sounds to overcome this limitation. And that humble decision to have fun no matter what in turn had allowed me to overcome the stereotype of limiting the dynamic expressions in music by J.S.Bach on the piano (vs. the klavier of his time). This most certainly restored in me the sense of the lacking at the time personal confidence and personal power to find solutions to what seemed to be the “unsolvable” problems.

When one does not know for sure, if the given day may be one’s last day, due to the lack of the medical care for the potentially lethal heart condition, it isn’t the easiest life style, admittedly. But, this intensity of the moment also allows for caring less about the issues of the little (if any?) significance, such as obeying the long-lasting yet senselessly limiting tradition, that demands that the keyboard music by J.S.Bach is performed with no dynamic variations and thus, with no emotional expression(!) despite its tonally rich musical content, due to the senseless reasoning of trying to perform his music “in the same” way that was possible on the instruments of his time. But, now open to the public archives had demonstrated to us that J.S.Bach was not some emotion-less, cold-hearted person… and so his music was lively and emotionally engaging (as his scores prove to those, who are able to read and are willing to comprehend the composer’s intent…)

In addition, my having to play polyphonic pieces with the sound of other instruments reminded me that J.S.Bach indulged into transcribing the music of his contemporaries for other instruments. And that sense of playing AS IF this may have been a transcription of genius masterpieces was just enough for me to be suddenly …LIBERATED from the senseless limitations that I had been carrying on and on since my childhood. This was a real license to ENJOY the richness of the harmonic language of the Master-composer, who was capable of such intricate polyphonic technique, so he could achieve the brilliance in the horizontal domain of the development of each voice, as well as capable to combine this mastery with the high intensity of the vertical development of harmonic sense of the musical compositions. And THIS particular ability makes this everlasting Genius of Polyphony particularly outstanding among many of his contemporaries and the generations of composers afterwards.

I also realized that due to having to live for years under the terrible stress of disruption of my plans at the whims of the senseless ill-minded City officials, my ability to focus on the earlier project of producing my recording of my performance was interrupted a number of times in the past, and as the result, I had no recordings to leave in the case of my passing under the circumstances of no medical coverage… And so, I quickly decided to grab my video-camera and to record whatever may come out — perfect or just good enough... I had recorded some other composers’ pieces too. But, my review of what came out on the video as the result of my performance of J.S.Bach’s music had made me beyond the puzzled… My performance of his music lacked any soul and was mechanical, like I had never played before. It made me gasp while facing this odd for me reality…

This was the moment of the true revelation when I became aware of my SELF-REPRESSION OF THE EMOTIONS OF PAIN. It is thanks to the particular abilities of J.S.Bach’s music, I was able to begin the process of re-gaining the full capacity of my self-awareness, through fearless face-off with the reasons for my suffering and finally being capable of analyzing it without the resurgence of the serious heart pain over as the response to the memory recall of the traumatic events of the past. And it was possible only thanks to J.S.Bach’s music’s most unique features. (And, I gave myself a promise to do everything in my powers to share the discovery of this gift with as many people as possible. Please STAY TUNED for the details!)

What I began discovering at that point was simply stunning. The piece of music I thought I knew so well, due to learning it in my teen years, actually began revealing the depths that were never noticed neither by me, nor by my teachers. (And I had to play this piece to a few teachers in the process of pre-exams auditions and then, at the exams.) As the blind spot of “prejudice” against J.S.Bach’s music was removed in y mind, most suddenly this two page Fugue had revealed the most amazing and previously UNNOTICED details of the musical text that called for the completely different way of performing this piece of music. This piece of music had become both most personal and at the same time, had gained the sense of the Universal Metaphor of the struggle of a gifted Artist with the mentally impoverished, yet powerful bureaucratic nerds that may be present in the lives of people for more than a decade, especially, if nothing is done to stand up to this pervasive evil of all times.

And it was due to having to encounter the most bold and right-into-your-face …DISSONANCES … SUDDENLY and after many years of staring at this two-page piece. (How could it possible that I could not notice them before? How selective our mind can be under the influence of prejudice…). Yes, the strictly prohibited at the time of J.S.Bach dissonances were included in several places by the master — not just once! No, this was not due to some typo or a copyist error. No, I suddenly understood that the intentional use of dissonances in this Fugue was for the special reason… It was a musical cartoon that J.S.Bach had written in the most masterful way. This discovery was incredibly exciting for me, indeed. And the timing for such excitement could not be more perfect — I needed it… to stay alive… (Please, see the upcoming POSTS on dopamine and other neurotransmitters’ release as the result of music engagement.)

And suddenly this allowed me to feel the entire spectrum of the feelings that my Idol must have gone through — the wild mixture of the repulsiveness and disgust from having to associate with the ugly and morally bankrupted, plagued by the pariah of the undignifying cognitive dissonance and self-betrayal. And yet, at the same time, his laughing-out-loud moment of musical revenge that now had transcended the time and the space, gave me much of the hope for the Humankind...

We could only guess if J.S.Bach had hoped, or even knew about his music being able to last after his passing. But, at that moment of the profound and most liberating discovery of mine, it felt as if my Idol had written the piece that was just perfect for …me, a person living 300 years later.

And my ability to finally begin smiling too while thinking of this most hopeless subject, at least at the times when I was at the keyboard, was the sign of the measurable possibility: I had a new reason to …live! no matter how hard it may be for me under the circumstances…

While this idea to share this powerful healing ability of J.S.Bach’s music crystallized in my mind, I felt that I needed to refresh his biography. That was the time when I turned to internet and found the above amazing documentary that was so resonant to my personal discovery of the amazing healing capacity of J.S.Bach’s music for trauma. (Please, stay tuned for more specific details.) It made me gasp and cry… I had watched this documentary several times, weeping every time for the different reasons. I was both outraged about the most unfair disgrace that my Idol had to go through, due to the unfair humiliation and character assassination by the primitive minds, because of the lack of most bewildering ignorance and the absence of the most fundamental conscience of his uncivilized and cruel contemporaries, who had hopelessly feared the power of this Genius, instead of taking from his generous hand, instead of learning from his graceful sharing of his everlasting talent.

I had another reason to cry… These were the tears of joy and emotional release. Suddenly, I realized that if J.S.Bach was alive today, he would stand up for me and he WOULD NOT HESITATE FOR A SINGLE MOMENT, because he would have enough intellect and compassion to appreciate my stand against the hopeless, barbaric & overpowering dominance over the gifted and generous souls of the Artists of all times, thanks to the quiet watch of the COWARDS-BYSTANDERS.

I cried with the tears of the emotional relief from being understood by all of the people in this world, who are also capable to appreciate the Genius of J.S.Bach. And his music served as the actual SPIRITUAL TRANSCENDENCE OF HIS SPIRIT IN OUR REALITY and beyond the time limitations. I felt the spiritual presence of my most invaluable virtual teacher, who had taught me more than all of my physically present in my conscious life teachers together — J.S.Bach. And my gratitude for the reclaimed sense of my own power through his amazing music was profound: I was ready to RECLAIM it, despite all of the challenges of breaking the false tradition. And I knew that his legacy depended on my courage to do justice towards his spiritual and musical legacy as well.

I cried and wept, while watching conductor John Eliot Gardiner walk through the the places of J.S.Bach’s residence and his archive, witnessing the emergence of the honest narrative with the descriptions of J.S.Bach’s life… And my learning about much similarity of these circumstances to the story of of my own life, filled with much of senseless suffering, due to the same problems that had consumed my Idol’s life, had been more than moving for me…

And then, what was even more revealing, when I looked up the dates of the creation of this Fugue, I gasped from finding out that in fact, J.S.Bach wrote it shortly after he was released from the false month-long(!) imprisonment and had escaped from his senseless and yet powerful harassers to the court of more reasonable and better educated count.

But my tears would have the mix of joy, since I felt that if my Idol would have been alive and present, he would be able to feel all of the emotions that I had to deal with, due to also having to survive the very similar experience of the most undeserved public humiliation: Not long before that I too was thrown to …jail, obviously for no deserved reasons, but due to the retaliation to my greater possession of the critical for my survival …knowledge.

No, this is NOT some typo. It is hard to believe, but …TRUE AND REAL: I, a disabled by the horrible hard to diagnose and treat Women-Specific Heart Condition, internationally recognized music educator, was also thrown to …jail?.. …

However, the circumstance of the retaliation to me were even more dire, since I was thrown to jail …FROM THE HOSPITAL BED(!!), and it could have easily ended my life right there an then…

It still remains a mystery to me, why the ER resident-doctor had decided to retaliate to the more knowledgeable (sadly) patient and called for …security guards to harass me from my hospital bed, instead of calling for the CARDIOLOGIST… It should be investigated, but despite my efforts (along with the efforts by several of my supporters), the hospital administration had NO response to this call for conscience.

This was my encounter with yet another savage-minded doctor with the most misleading appearance of “a nice woman”, who had failed to practice most elemental COMPASSION, in addition to having no training about the well-known by then issues of Women-Specific Heart Disease. No, she refused to listen to my pleas for her looking up the references about the common false-negative test results in 1/4–1/2 of women’s heart conditions… (WHY her prejudice had overwhelmed her professional duties and her human instinct to save a human life, is necessary to investigate for the benefits of ALL. Please, stay tuned for more updates!) But instead of following her duties that called to care for a patient through the life-preserving actions, she had turned to the use of force against a patient, who tearfully pleaded for help, and who could have easily died while in her care, or could have easily had a stroke as the result of her lacking compassionate connection with the reality in front of her - due to forcing a patient with the heart pain complaints and with the history of a heat attack to get up and to move actively, despite the warnings (from the patient!) that the re-surged heart pain can lead to a stroke in such horrific circumstances. (Stay tuned for the details and the related recordings of the interactions with with the medical staff and security…)

Actually, the horrific truth is that SF General Hospital (now called Zuckerberg Hospital) has the reputation of the unspeakable cruelty towards the underprivileged patients, most of whom have no means to challenge their routine misuse of force against those most vulnerable people, whose suffering should be addressed with compassionate care instead.

(Sadly, there is much more to describe about the most savage ways of how 1st responders had “demonstrated their “ability to care” for the potentially lethal condition, refusing to allow me to use a wheelchair, among other horrors that could have easily caused the in-custody fatality… When I was finally released from this false an life-threatening imprisonment, the public servants found yet another way to demonstrate how much they had “cared for my life’s safety” — they had refused to give me back my evening gown… that had to be re-claimed several months later… adding more and more stress, KNOWINGLY of the LETHAL DANGER OF SUCH HOSTILITY... Stay tuned for the jaw- dropping revealing insights that can HELP SAVE YOUR/YOUR LOVED ONES’ LIVES at the times when the hostility against patients is becoming institutionalized at the profit-driven medical institutions.)

All that and much more had come back into my reality from my repressed memory that was protecting me from the dangerous heart-effecting emotional pain. But, what a miracle! Thanks to the musical presence of J.S.Bach’s that transcended his compassion and loving-kindness, I had nothing to fear any more about being understood… The compassionate musical presence of my most revered Idol and Teacher had overpowered the hurtful, yet absurd in their misleading manipulations and unaware of their own self-defeat creatures, immersed deeply into the incredibly frustrating DISRESPECT, thus never issuing me an apology, in the case they might have made human errors. No, instead, they had tried to slander my name and discredit my pure heart efforts — just in the exactly same manner as my Idol J.S.Bach was treated 300 years ago and in the most profound manifestation of own UNCIVILIZED DISABILITY TO COMPREHEND his amazing talent and remarkable generosity of his character.

And yet, the everlasting Fugue by J.S.Bach that I could play millions of time, had demonstrated most boldly that their legacy will be nothing, but A MOST SOPHISTICATED MUSICAL JOKE left for laughing for the generations to come, thanks to endless caricature behavior that is a perfect fit to the musical cartoon that J.S.Bach had manifested in the form of the the most inventive his humorous Fugue. And that sense of the the EVERLASTING REDEMPTION FOR BOTH SELF AND FOR MY IDOL was both relieving and empowering.

Only later on I found out that in addition to all of the above, I had yet another similarity with my Idol, who had also dedicated his life to generously sharing of his precious Music Gift: Only at that time (and sadly, not sooner) I also found more internet references about our shared passion for ADVOCACY FOR MUSIC EDUCATION. At his last place of employment/residence in Leipzig he had to plea continuously for the funding for music education, because the city leaders did not provide it voluntarily, due to their “visionary” moral atrocity.

(My heart was bleeding from having to learn that J.S.Bach could not gain the respect from the uncivilized authority figures of his city, since he was appointed to his position only because another “MORE SIGNIFICANT” composer Telemann had refused to take that appointment… Yet another fact of the savage-run city administration that sheds the eternal shame for such barbaric mentality that does not stop to be rewarded with the unlimited power of the public authority…)

Knowing of such resemblance in my own convictions brought the smile to me again. Prior to learning about this fact of my Idol’s biography, I had included his name into my abstract for the organized by me Int’l Symposium on “Advocacy for Music Education through Brain/Music Research” (part of the 29th World Conference for International Society for Music Education,ISME) that I flew to lead not long after having to live through my heart attack, at the incredible risk and due to the sense of my obligation for being able to understand what others are yet to comprehend — the value of the transformative power of music on the human mind. (Stay tuned for more the jaw-dropping details on this.)

Indeed, much of my life I have been puzzled by the lack of understanding of what seems the most obvious — the music’s power to heal and to restore the balance that may be disrupted by the unresolved emotional trauma. However, in order to tap into the treasury of the ancestral legacy in this domain, it is so helpful to learn and to practice the elements of the metaphorical language of music that opens up the gates to the development of the abstract cognition at the very early age and enhances various facets of the mental function throughout the lifespan.

The discussion of the presentations by the distinguished educators from different countries (Estonia, Russian, California, USA) had brought the important conclusions: not the lack of funds, but the lack of the ethical values is the reason for cutting the funding for providing the Music Education for All. Whether or not the government officials had any musical education of their own, there is no excuse in DENYING TO THE CHILDREN OF THE NEXT GENERATION THEIR OWN ABILITY TO EXPERIENCE THE FEELING OF BEING UPLIFTED AND INSPIRED TO MOVE THE MOUNTAINS through the music’s impact. However, it is INTANGIBLE, unlike any other school subjects’ benefits that related to the easy to touch issues (not more valuable however).

And that is why, the translation of the benefits involves the exercise of the abstract cognition — the very same advanced cognitive function that music education engagement assists in developing. (If only better educational opportunities can be visualized and can be offered at least to the next generations of learners by the current generation of the government officials, most sadly deprived of their own opportunities, and thus, unable to have the personal experiences that inform the better future choices, but still capable of appreciating the opportunity that it opens for the life-long self-growth… The hopelessness of the educational policy makers of California is easily explained by the state of the lacking community engagement into Arts and Music in the Cultural Wasteland of Sacramento, for example.)

Just like my virtual teacher J.S.Bach, I too had gained much insight into the roots of such undignified behavior that hurts us all: Every act of harm and hostility has the roots in unresolved emotional trauma.

So it is due to the lack of the access to the healing tools of the authentic expression through the Arts and Music these individuals are incapable to transcend their own trauma that spills over into the lives of those around, especially when such individuals that are plagued by ever present during our challenging times SOCIAL DISEASE OF COGNITIVE DISSONANCE have the access to the unlimited power and create the ENVIRONMENT that REVVEALS their own lack of values, along with the telling misfit to the LEADERSHIP POSITIONS THEY OCCUPY FOR THE WRONG REASONS and CONTRARY TO THE COMMON GOOD.

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I was tempted to thank my readers for their attention and the time they had taken to travel with me through the tribulations of the back-and-forth time travel. But, the same sense of URGENCY that had moved me to pen out this story (at a great sacrifice of my life-pressing health priorities) calls upon me to say something that is also NOT EXPECTED in the appeals:

This is the time and place to THANK YOURSELF, not me for what YOU WERE ABLE TO FIND FOR YOURSELF in this narrative.

My above essay isn’t written for another sinister reader, who does not mind acting as a bystander to the senseless act of cruelty towards another artist, that throw the entire Human race centuries ago. It is an attempt to find RESONANCE for the benefit of READER’S SELF-BENEFITS THAT AMOUNT TO THE DIFFERENT REALITY FOR THEM AND FOR ALL OF US.

It is the desperate CALL FOR THE AWAKENING from the self-destructive habits, with the expectation to hear a reasonable in such circumstances response of refusing to continue sinking dipper and dipper into the demise of the pervasive DISPASSIONATE-ness. And “What can I do to help protecting what we value and whom we value?” should be a natural response.

And since the life is too short to waste it, I thank in advance each one of ONLY those of you, whose advanced cognitive abilities disallow to simply stand-by and hope for someone else’s acts of daily heroism that keeps our globe spinning.

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